Senzo Meyiwa's widow, Mandisa is grappling to come to terms with loosing the soccer star.
It's been three months since the Bafana Bafana captain was tragically gunned down outside his girlfriend, Kelly Khumalo's home.
Mandisa spoke to Sowetan newspaper in a "tell all" interview where she described the pain she still feels.
She told the paper that whenever she misses Senzo, she sends him a Whatsapp message. "When I feel I need to share something...I send him a Whatsapp message. I also send him videos of my daughter whenever she does something silly," she told the paper.
Mandisa added that she dreams about him all the time and still talks to him everyday.
Meanwhile, police are still investigating Senzo's murder and no arrests have been made.
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