Tasha Baxter: "Most of the people important to me abandoned me"
Remember Tasha Baxter? The SAMA award winning local pop singer has been out of the music scene for some time, but she's doing her best to get back, even if she faces a long, lonely road ahead.
Tasha spoke to The Juice exclusively, where she revealed the pain and abandonment she felt when she left the music industry to get help. Tasha was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder Type 1 a few years ago, and after suffering from a few episodes of mania and being hospitalised to get help, she's slowly on the road to recovery.
"I kind of lost everything that I had. My studio, my boyfriend, my house, my car - all in one go," she reveals. "Basically over the last two years I've been rebuilding".
"One thing that gets to me a lot is that I didn't and still don't get any support from the local music scene" she reveals. "Especially when I feel like I've given it so much. It would just be nice to have the recognition and support of your own, which is already so small".
Despite one or two people in the industry still checking up on her, she says "friends are very few". "I can count them on one hand. I don't have many close friends," she says. "
But it's not only a lack of friends in the industry that hurts her. Tasha is only just recovering from a manic breakdown, that saw her put her musical career on hold to get medical help at a psychiatric hospital, and three weeks ago she had her home studio ransacked .
"I just give up. I wanted to throw in the towel. I'm like 'fine! I'll just be a waitress somewhere," she says of all the hardship she's faced over the last few months. "But I'm super tenacious and it (music) is my absolute passion, so I don't think anything could make me stop. It makes me just want to fight harder for it!".
Tasha says she's now working with a few producer friends to complete her next album. In the meantime, she's been trying to revive her career by featuring as a EDM vocalist. She says she still reads every single comment on every single track she puts out and the negative comments hurt her. "There can be like 500 000 awesome comments and 1 negative comment and it will still get to me!" she reveals.
We can't wait for your epic return!