Kelly remembers Senzo in emotional blog entry

2015-10-26 10:30


Kelly Khumalo & Senzo Meyiwa (INSTAGRAM)

Johannesburg- Singer and TV personality Kelly Khumalo has for the first time gone into detail about the death of her late partner and former Bafana Bafana captain, Senzo Meyiwa. 

Today marks one year since news of the soccer star's death sent shock waves through the nation. 

Senzo was killed during an alleged botched robbery at Kelly's family home in Vosloorus. It's one year on and Senzo's killers are still at large. 

At the time of Senzo's death, Kelly faced severe backlash from mourning fans. It was also reported that there was allegedly swirling tension between Kelly and Senzo's family. 

It was also reported that Kelly was not allowed to attend the funeral, which gripped the entire nation. Despite the swirling reports and controversy that marred the soccer star's death, Kelly remained silent about her pain. 

Taking to Tumblr, Kelly opened up for the first time about the love she has for Senzo and the gaping hole his death has left in her life. 

He took my whole world with him

Today is exactly a year since it happened. Since our great loss, for you it was a goalkeeper, a captain, a friend, a brother, a son, a beloved cousin, maybe a role model, for me, it was everything. If you can imagine the world ending before your eyes you can almost imagine what happened there. I saw the world’s fatality. We never think about that, that the world is a mortal thing, that one day it will shatter into a million pieces and there will be no consolation. I mean, we think about death, that we will come to lose our loved ones and remain here, with broken hearts. But Senzo’s death was not as we’ve come to know death. He took my whole world with him.

The bond we shared is indestructible

They say that time heals. I guess it is true that all clichés stem from some truth. Time heals curable things. I know that I will never let go of him, and that’s because I don’t want to. But time has healed some of the things. It was a terrible thing that happened. An unimaginable tragedy. Senzo was more than just a lover to me; he was a part of me. The bond we shared, its indestructibility scared me. I always thought to myself, what kind of love is this that I have for this man? And you know that I have been heartbroken and disappointed before so I was no longer good at being gullible. It turned out I didn’t need to be naive to love him. Because love doesn’t need that. We saw each other, knew each other and loved each other as we were.

He is no less the love of my life

We made love and named her Thingo. And even in his absence, Love still resembles him in an almost creepy way. I will always be grateful to him for her and for everything we shared. For how much stronger he made me. Love can grow you, it is true. The love that we shared made a woman out of me. It has taken some time to see things so soberly. It wasn’t easy to do that when he passed. There was so much commotion everywhere that I could hardly hear myself and feel my loss. And then things calmed down and there I was within myself and the tragedy struck.

I have lost something very precious to me. I wish I could tell you that the value of precious things depreciates when you lose them but it does not. Instead, the universe sets out to remind you daily how you’ve lost a brilliant thing. He is no less the love of my life now than he was when he was here, when I could see his face, touch him, talk to him, hear his laugh, watch how his face lit up whenever he saw our daughter.

I am sorry for your loss SA

I was too heartbroken to say this then, but I am so sorry for your loss South Africa. I know that there will never be anyone else like him. I hope that you never forget him, as I know that I never could. May his soul continue to rest in peace.

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