Johannesburg - Zoleka Mandela recently opened up about how she is still struggling to come to terms with the loss of her grandmother Winnie Mandela, in a series of Instagram posts.
It’s been almost four-months since Mzansi learnt that the mother of nation Winnie Madikizela-Mandela was no more.
As tributes in honour of the late struggle-stalwart continue to pour in, her granddaughter Zoleka Mandela detailed in lengthy Instagram posts how difficult it has been and still is for her to accept the pain that has come with Mam’Winnie’s death.
“I don't even know what that means exactly, how can anyone say how long you get over grief? I don't think I ever will,” Zoleka captioned a picture of herself.
In the heartfelt post the 38-year-old When Hope Whispers author explained how despondent and alone she felt, furthermore how detached from herself she was after Mam’Winnie’s death.
Zoleka goes on to elaborate on how it was the very same people who were absent at her grandmothers side that now forwarded her words of comfort and strength.
“It only hurts more. Where were they when you were suffering in silence and pretending to be okay, when you actually needed their company and not another request from them to take more pictures with you that they are now posting on social media to advance their own interests?” she added.
Zoleka who had unknowingly spent her final Good Friday service with Mam’Winnie, shared memories of the last few days she spent with her grandmother before her passing in another Instagram post.
“I wish I spent the night again when you asked me to that Saturday because you would have woken me up in the early hours of the morning when you felt the tightness in your chest,” she captioned the post which featured a video series of their pictures.
“Why did you wait until I left the hospital to go home and change, for you to take your last dying breath without me? Is it because I always fell apart when you got sick or when you were in pain that I never gave you the chance to be weak so I could be strong for you for a change?” she wrote.
Zoleka concludes the moving post by explaining how much guilt she feels for not having been there for Winnie’s final living moments .
